I came across this forum and it is great to see like minded people who understand how we feel!
I am not sure "what" I am. I not really a cuck, my gf is not really a hotwife because she is not my wife ... we are m25/f23
How I got into it .... I was always very jealous when other guys looked at my gf or checked her out. Eventually I realized that it turns me on when she is desired by other men who cant have her. It excited me to know men desire her and get turned on by her and I loved seeing how they check her out. I was imagining how they lust over her, how she turns them on and how they get horny from looking at her.
This thought become stronger and stronger. I wanted her to be desired by others. This grew in my mind to the point where I wanted other men to touch her, kiss her and have sex with her. I could not let go of this idea and just thinking about it made me incredibly horny.
I didnt think she would be interested because she is what you would call a normal girl. She wasnt into bi, regardless of male or female.
I started by telling her how I noticed other men check her out because she is hot. I pointed out guys who check her out. At first she was not interested in hearing about it. and she was rather embarrassed. But she was more and more ok with it and she liked the attention.
From there I suggested to have sex on webcam and let strangers watch. She wasnt into this but agreed to it. She liked the attention and being desired and we did it quiet a bit.
It also turned me on seeing other men get hard and horny while watching us and her and watch them masturbate until they came.
From there it was a big step to get her to actually meet other guys. She does not orgasm from sex with me and kept bringing up that she deserves to orgasm and that maybe we could have a "teacher" from who I can learn. It took months to make her comfortable with it.
I think that most women would be happy to have permission to have sex with other men but are taught that it is not ok. To be honest, maybe it isnt and for most people its not.
She ended up agreeing to trying it. We put an ad in a sex forum. The response was crazy. We had over 500 men reply to us and we did not put pictures in the ad.
We both agreed on what we were looking for: an "older" guy with experience and maturity and a big penis for her. Ideally married since especially I didnt want her to fall for him. She likes mature men and she was fine with it.
Out of the 500 men there were about 10 who could read and write and fit our description and ideas. We met 3 and out of those one was ideal for us. We had STD tests and required it from him as well. She is on the pill and even better, he is snipped so pregnancy was also no concern.
The only issue is that he is not bi and I wanted to try bi but since she isnt into bi activity, I accepted it as this being as good as it gets.
To him and her it was advertised as a 3some where she would be the center of the attention but I did not want to participate, I only wanted to watch.
For the deed, we met him in a hotel. She was very nervous and almost bailed but we pulled through. In the hotel she had some wine and it made her more confortable.
It was very weird for me. I was horny and jealous all at once. He was naked in a robe. I undressed and she laid on the bed. I touched and kissed her while he touched her lower body. She enjoyed it and I stopped touching her and just laid besides her while he caressed her. She let him and I moved off the bed and just watched.
it was wild. It did bother me to see how she enjoyed it but it also drove me wild. she let him kiss her. He went down on her and she loved it and came relatively quickly.
Then he consumated her. His penis entered her. It was crazy to see it. He lasted a long time. Much longer than me and his penis was also big. She came from him. Then he came in her. After he came he pulled out and laid besides her and kissed her.
I was rock hard and sat besides her and touched her pussy. His semen was coming out of her and I rubbed it and fingered her. I used the juices from her pussy to masturbate and came pretty much immidiately.
Then I got my post nut clarity and it felt really weird. I felt weird. They were still hugging and kissing and pretty much ignored me. After he got hard again they had sex again while I watched. Then we left and it was pretty awkward between him and I. He mostly ignored me.
She was very awkward and we didnt talk much for the rest of the day.
The next day was also awkward but when I tought back to it, it turned me on and I wanted it again. She did not admit that she liked and and said it was ok for her.
We kept meeting him and it is usally always the same. She is no longer shy and enjoys it, she openly admits how good the sex is (its not hard to tell) and I watch.
She does ask why I never participate and I say that I want it be all about her for her. In reality I love watching and seeing him in her and I love to see how she enjoyes it and how he makes love to her.
I usually go down on her after he cums while he gets hard again and I like it. It still drives me crazy to see another guy in her and see how he cums in her and seeing his semen on her pussy.
After a while I also started to give him oral and I enjoy it. Even he is not bi he lets me give him oral if I am in a submissive position. It is hard to explain but its mostly after he cums and is soft and his penis is covered in juices or if I kneel in front of him and lick his penis.
she is not really crazy about it but also doesnt care much. she has stated that she finds it hot seeing me giving him oral but she is alrgely indifferent about it.
We see him anything from twice a week to once a month depening on how it works out. he cant always get away since it would be a problem if his wife found out. he travels a lot for work and can often make it happen. he does not have sex with his wife because she doesnt want sex. they are together for their children and since a divorce would be messy and she does not seem to care too much what he does.
between me and my gf it did become, lets say, weird. We have a lot less sex ans usually only if she cant see him for a while. she still does not orgasm from sex with me and she doesnt really care much about it. when we have sex she demands I use a condom or cum outside her. even she is on the pill she claims it is because she doesnt like cum dripping out of her. she lets me go down on her more often and will give me hand jobs rather than have sex.
She does meet him alone now as well. She prefers it but doesnt stop me from coming as well.
Do I regret it?
No. I may regret it if she was my wife. but we are young and she is only mt gf and I dont think we would have gotten married one way or another. So that is why I do like it.
So what am I? not sure a bit cuck and a bit have a hotgirlfriend (if that term exists).
Matt